I didn’t go to school for days. I didn’t want to see Grace or talk to her. Throughout those days I couldn’t pray, I just cried and cried. If my soul were to be a river, I would have cried it dry. My mother was always in my room after she closed from the restaurant. She wouldn’t say a word but she let me know she was there for me by just putting my head on her laps and uttering words of prayers for me. One of those days after my mom had prayed for me and left to her room, I felt restless in my spirit so I knelt to pray. I still couldn’t pray, I just began singing the first song on my lips.
Oh,oh,oh….my heart sings….oh,oh,oh.
I began trembling after some minutes. I knew the Holyspirit had come to fellowship with me. After singing for a long time, I decided to let it all out.
“Lord why can’t he just leave me alone?”
“Mary-Jane, he needs to talk to you” the voice was clear, unmistakable.
“Talk to me, I don’t care what he has to say, I’m not interested! I’m just mad at Grace, how could she do this to me?”
“Talk to her”
“I don’t want to talk to anybody!” I was shouting at the Holyspirit. Suddenly I felt like I was alone, I sensed the Holyspirit had withdrawn and I instantly regretted my actions. I had grieved Him again by outrightly refusing to obey His commands, so I apologized and decided to go to school the next day and talk to Grace, because of God.
When I saw Grace after class, her eyes were puffy, I asked if she was okay. She just nodded and made to leave but I held her back and gave her a tight hug.
“I’m sorry MJ, I didn’t know Minister Absalom was your Absalom” she whispered into my ears.
“Minister Absalom, is that what you guys call him?” She nodded.
“He plays the base guitar during service”. I was shocked. I apologized to Grace for the way I treated her and she forgave me, then we sat down to talk. She said Absalom had told her everything when she had asked if he knew me.
“MJ, you need to talk to him. He’s in pain too” Why did everyone say that? I scoffed
“Well, I don’t have anything to say to him”.
©️G.O.V.T💖✍️
